Seven Years of Love

Seven years ago today I was awaiting my “friend’s” return from a visit with his son who lives very North of us, an all day trip there and back.
He told me in a text message that he had something he wanted to discuss with me when he got back. He came straight from the road trip to my house. It was late afternoon, we walked to go pick up my son from daycare, we were holding hands walking by a huge patch of clover when he said, “I decided that I love you…” I don’t really remember the rest because my head filled with possibilities and dreams.
IMG_20110625_124743The rest of the night was magical.
Later I found out that at that time a friend was giving birth. In a way so were me and my now hubby.
We call this day our Love-a-versary. It represents a time when we committed to love and the act of loving without much of a plan, just loving each other.


Gratitude*Sunday is a wonderful way to be intentional with the blessings life brings you and the ones that you are creating. Thank you Wooly Moss Roots for sharing this tradition with us.

I’m grateful for so many things, here are a few of them:
*Our oldest (Treetrunk) returning from a month long vacation with his bio-dad and step family. I missed him deeply. Now we are trying to get back to some sort of normal before the school year starts up again.

*Good friends returning “home” after being away for almost three years, hurray! I foresee dinners and long conversations shared in the near future.

*Our amazing, thoughtful, generous community. We do so well raising up these incredible little people together.

*Our tiniest (Indigo) is sitting up, mostly on his own, rolling over and EC is going really well. He is so incredible and intelligent. He is reminding us of all that magic and wonder of childhood.


*I’m regularly meditating and sending positive energy to our middle boy (Oboster) so far away and entering the 7th grade this year. This will be the year of great changes for him.

*I’m grateful for the opportunity to consider full time homeschooling. Yes, we are here once again. As the months draw closer to high school we must think seriously about this. Thanks to Hubby we can actually make it happen if it turns out to be the right thing.

*I’m grateful for simple things like knitting needles and yarn and the skills to create something sweet and special.

We love you family and friends.

Local Coastal Trip

“The sea that calls all things unto her calls me, and I must embark” – Kahlil Gibran

We saw our midwife on Friday. She let us know that in 3 weeks time we will be given the “no travel” status. This means no traveling farther than a 30ish minute drive or something like that. Hubby and I didn’t think we’d be doing any adventures any time before the babe comes anyways but it still made us think about what was really important to take care of before the big birthing day.

So the morning of our adventures Hubby looked at me with his sparkling eyes, the way he does, and announces that we will be traveling to the Oregon Coast after picking up Treetrunk boy from his sleepover.

We also decided that our homeschooling project could fit lovingly into this plan. At the new year Hubby decided that we would do one family homeschooling science project per month that would involve data collecting on a special field trip. (Seriously loving this guy and his ability to embrace education in a different light/realm). Yay for collaborating and wrapping up family time and learning!

We found ourselves in Yachats, Oregon where Ten Mile Creek meets the Pacific Ocean. Here are some photos from that day:

G r a t i t u d e * S u n d a y

G r a t i t u d e  *  S u n d a y

{Sunday’s heartfelt tradition. A time to slow down, to reflect, to be grateful. A list of gratitudes.}

A Wooly Moss Roots Tradition


Treetrunk walking the path at Mt. Pisgah, May 2012.

-I’m grateful for the wonderful abundance of food we have right now. We are so blessed with our basic necessities and more. It’s a cause for reflection in gratitude, for sure.

-Hubby and his undying love for me and the kids. He’s providing us with a life where we feel safe, healthy and happy. Things I never really felt (so deeply) until partnering with him.

-The large windows in our living room. We watch the “wild life” every day and enjoy make believe commentary that we give to the squirrels and birds. The voices they have through our family’s goofiness is delightful fun us. It also serves as a distraction to screens.

-I’m grateful for complications because they are forcing me to slow my roll. And on that note I must say good day and good week because those complications are nagging at my body again.

Happy Merry Holidays everyone!

Gratitude Sunday

A Year In Review

The Pacheco Swan Family’s year in review. Skip to the bottom if you just want the photos.

Looking back on the year, and being honest, we were hit rather hard in 2012. “Parenting Plan” court dates, fractured friendships, pregnancy, moving, dropping the ball everywhere else in life, all while keeping this family going through the daily routine. With little to no help from the ones who we thought would have our backs. We formed new friendships and rekindled old ones. Our community has been pouring the love toward us. There are so many of you! We love you all!

(Light candles, smudge, hold hands, sing songs…)

Hubby and I also leaned on each other more than ever before. Hubby has been the rock for the family this year. Incredible only dusts the surface in revealing who he is. He’s been making me breakfast and getting my vitamins and tea for me every single morning during this pregnancy (32 weeks now – 8ish weeks left), amongst the other numerous things he does for us. He spends more time with our Treetrunk boy so that he feels supported through the pregnancy too. I love Hubby with all of my heart, soul, and mind.

In a way these hard times have been a blessing. Yes, let’s look at them that way. Because, really, when this family was put through emotional hellish circumstances, dealing with horrible people, not enough money and bureaucratic limitations…we did not crumble. We grew stronger. And that is what a family should be, right?

My family are the people I can grow with, learn with, love with, cry with, frustrate with, hold on tightly to and release knowing that time will be short so let us enjoy each other. And I’m finding more and more that our communities are an extension of all of this wonder.

We are magic! Thank you for being apart of all that magic.

Bits of family life 2012, in no particular order:

Treetrunk and Oboster Summer 2012

Treetrunk with one of his besties.

Oboster’s first homemade applesauce Summer 2012.

7 months Pregnant at Hendricks Park.

Nico and Treetrunk at Hendricks Park, December 2012.

Hubby at Mt. Pisgah May 2012

Treetrunk and Hubby at Mt. Pisgah May 2012

The Pacheco Swan Family


G r a t i t u d e  *  S u n d a y

{Sunday’s heartfelt tradition. A time to slow down, to reflect, to be grateful. A list of gratitudes.}

A Wooly Moss Roots  Tradition


Gratitude is such an interesting thing. It can lead us to find greater appreciation in the every day. All you need to do is look around you.

*Gratitude for the simple. We have heat, fresh water, indoor plumbing, beds. Nothing is fancy. “Just” a home, to give birth in, to raise children in, to make our life in.

*Gratitude for my family.
**My boys! I love them so. I cannot imagine my life w/o them. I’m thinking of those beautiful souls that were taken on Friday. If I think too much about it I see their confused scared faces in the moment. I can’t wait until my boys are home with us and I can breath them in.
**My amazing husband! Such a wonderful person. Thoughtful and kind. A loving and giving and involved father. He gets my toast and egg for me every morning before he has to head out the door for work by 5am. He has helped made this pregnancy so special. I’m so thankful I married my best friend.

*Gratitude for Mama friends/Sisters. I’m grateful to have a space where I can sing my praises and vent my frustrations. Thank you! I’ve learned so much from all of you!

That’s a lot to be thankful for. I say this a lot, because I feel this a lot, I am truly blessed in this life.

Gratitude Sunday

Gratitude Sunday

G r a t i t u d e  *  S u n d a y
{Sunday’s heartfelt tradition. A time to slow down, to reflect, to be grateful. A list of gratitudes.}

I’m starting something new here. I’m not sure how this will fit our current family rhythm but I’m excited to find out.


*I’m grateful for my boys, 11 and 12 y.o.
-Receiving something so simple as a school portrait brings me joy. My 11 y.o. smiling eyes are so wonderful and fill my heart with joy. I cried a bit when I opened the holiday card from his family up in B-ham. I’m so grateful that they send these to us.
-My Oldest working hard last week to complete tasks that may be easy for others but aren’t for him also brings me great joy. It’s hard to see your kiddos struggle. I’m grateful that I have resources to help him when I feel my own are drained. It’s been some happy jaunts forward only to be slammed in reverse 10 paces. That’s life on the teenage track though and I’m grateful for the experience.

*I’m grateful for my multi-talented hubby. Last week he fixed the fridge that had been out since before Thanksgiving and unclogged some relic plumbing in our bathroom. Functional! I didn’t realize how dysfunctional this family could get w/o a working fridge and bath tub.

*I’m grateful for our wonderful midwife. Wow! She’s a beacon of knowledge. She taught hubby how to put my dislocated rib back when it pops out. Awww! Relief…for now.

*We can’t forget the honey in the pot. Our little bean brings me so much gratitude. On days when I think “I’ve had enough!” I feel those little magical kicks and reprocess that negativity. Powerful! I look forward to seeing what becomes of this, already, bright bright soul.

Thank you to Another Day-Another Mom for introducing me to this wonderful little tradition.

You can follow the Wooly Moss Roots who brought this tradition about.

Kids In Skeleton Shirts Eat Waffles!

I asked for waffles this morning and my hubby asked, “Where’s the waffle mix?”

I’m sure I gave a glare but then I laughed and replied, “When have I ever used a mix for waffles?”

(P.S. I’m not against using a mix for waffles. There are some really yummy ones out there. I just prefer making my own and it is usually less expensive.)

In a large mixing bowl, whisk together:
1 C Buckwheat Flour
1/2 C Coconut Flour
1/4 C Teff Flour
1 t Baking Soda
1/2 t Salt
1 T Date Sugar or Coconut Sugar

In a separate bowl, whisk together:
3 eggs
1 t Vanilla extract
1/2 t Lemon extract
1 1/2 C Drinkable Coconut Milk
1 C Olive oil

Grease and heat waffle press. Use as directed by manufacturer.
Dress with you family’s favourite toppings.

Olive oil, coconut milk, and buckwheat waffles.


Kids in skeleton shirts eat waffles!

Beltane/May Day

May 1st is generally a day that I am mindful of what I’m giving back to the Earth Mother, our community, and our family.

In celebration of this day I wildcrafted Lemon Balm and Cleaver then made Glycerite with these lovely plants.

Lemon Balm and Cleavers.

Also, I transplanted some starts.
Some of them have come from our boys’ hard work that started last Summer with them stripping Purple Kale seed pods (seed saving).

I’ll be selling some of the starts for donations that will go to the boys’ Summer fund. Purple Kales along with some Broccoli and Joi Choi (Bak Choi).

Purple Kale starts.

Happy May Day/Beltane and may your final bits of Spring bring you work for those busy hands and helpful heart-work in your family and community.

Peace, love, and heart-work.

Cleavers soaking in filtered water.

Happy Purple Kale close-up.


All I Need Today

Today I need so much, or I think I do?!

Emotional work is hard work and can end up leaving you feeling empty inside.

Today my oldest left me a message before he left to meet the bus. He doesn’t know all that I face today, he doesn’t need to know.

Him and I have a connection beyond what bounds us to this earth, beyond the heavens, beyond anything physical…we are connected by our souls.

He often knows I need something w/o me asking.

Today he left me this message:

"I love you Mum." by Treetrunk boy.

That’s all I need today, a little message about the big love between me and him.