4.15.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

@Sam Bonds Garage Pub Savage Seeds t-shirt

@Sam Bonds Garage Pub
Savage Seeds t-shirt

Hubby says, “I’m going to party like it’s 8:39”. That’s in pm. We are feeling this Friday.

It was a good day. I got to see one of my bestest friends. I love her dearly like a sister. We’ve been through storms together and now we both have baby/toddlers at the same time. It’s been wonderful to have her back in our hometown.

Indigo had a mild day though he screamed down the Kiva, a local natural grocer. Which in our home town is a right of passage for most kids here.

We went to both of our co-op grocers too. Both hold love and care and magic for us. Thank you Lilly for the connection, always.

We visited a local artist and friend Sarah Ciampa and purchased a piece. I’m so excited to receive and gift this art to someone special in my life.

We visited another local artist and friend but it was only a drop off. We need Indigo’s amber necklace repaired and who better to do that than Maya Rabasa of Casa Rabasa?!

We had a beer and some food at Sam Bonds and ran into some sweet community members.

I’m so glad Indigo has you all to lean on and be with through it all. Growing up is hard to do!

It’s all better with friends <3

4.13-14.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

We had our monthly Fruit Booth meeting last night. It’s always great to see all the faces we spend a week with out in the woods with music and fruit and frivolity.

These meetings are people from all walks of life coming together so we strive to be respectful and compassionate towards each other. Last night was a big learning experience for me, I usually learn something about myself but last night was a summit. “Speak up!” Was my lesson! Sometimes folks don’t hear me, whether it’s a physical thing or mental block, I wasn’t heard last night and I’m responsible for that.

Take care of you so you can get on with your work!

4.10.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

It was a wonderful Sunday morning with friends at UUCE annual brunch service.

It’s such a warm and welcoming place for us. And I know my kids are safe, respected and even loved by many there.

I hope whatever you do on Sunday’s (or your day off, whenever that is) that you are able to build community with reverence, joy and equity for yourselves and your family. Also important, have some fun while doing it.

Happy Sunday to you all!

4.8.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

More on trauma and an intro on how art can bring you new horizons…

Knitting has not only helped me relaxe while I make things but I get to use my artistic skills with mixing and matching colours and strengthen my math and pattern skills.

Something else happened though that was unexpected, I found ravelry.com, an international community of yarn enthusiasts. Mostly knitters and crocheters but I’ve seen some woven works while perusing the pattern data base late at night.

This international community has taken me ¬†way past my skill points, expanded my knowledge base in both math and patterns and it’s introduced me to incredible artists and incredible people. Most of the time I meet people who love creating beautiful and interesting pieces of art but every once in a while I find other people who are struggling with their mental health. They lost someone they love deeply, they are recovering from surgery, they are in counseling for an abusive relationship of some kind…many of these things are found through the profiles with links to blogs and Facebook pages.

This community, although reaching across the world, is quite small. So bumping into reality happens often. When we share in this way we can start the healing and our art blooms and seeds that can spread and can help someone sow their own art and healing.

I hope you take some time to check out the beautiful pieces being made and the expressions that are shared. Maybe you’ll find some friends along the way and begin the healing?

Again and again and again…keep taking care of each other!!

4.5-6.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

It’s been some long long days with Indigo. I think he’s going through a growth spurt and cognitively he’s making some leaps.

He loves talking about colours and “3-2-1 blast off!”

He had his big yearly evaluation with Child Development and he’s moving right along. He’s right where he should be for being Indigo <3

Thank you for loving us just the way we are, some with an extra Chromey!

3.28.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

3 years of no sleeping really gets to you. 7-ish years of “sleeping” next to someone who snores is hard but not as complicated as a toddler who cannot tell us what’s wrong, he might not even understand it himself?

Last night was not uncommon for Indigo and we know some of you experience these nights too. It’s too much sometimes but I work on digging deep for that extra ounce of compassion and try to refill my cup when I’m given the opportunity.

Last night: Indigo’s down by 8pm (wow!) but he fell asleep in the living room. We move him to his bed and he wakes up. Hubby tries for nearly three hours to get Indigo to sleep with periodic nursing with mama and water breaks. At almost 11pm papa/hubby needs sleep so he can go to work so mama takes over the nightly kidcare. Nursing and putting babe in the carrier and walking and nursing and walking and nursing, three more hours goes by. Mama can’t walk and nurse anymore. Papa takes over another three hours then has to get ready for work. It’s 4am and Mama goes back out to the living room where it all started but babe is still crying until he passes out then wakes up to cry some more (my poor baby!).

Bach’s Rescue Remedy, Milky Oat Tops, lots of nursing milkies, walking, TV, music, singing, reading, lots of trying to read, some more TV…the whole time babe is signing “all done” and “hurt” and can’t tells us what or where. Finally, Ibuprofen is given and its 7am and he’s now passed out on mama for who knows how long?

I’m not sure about putting things like this out there but maybe it will help someone? At least, you’re not alone in the struggle.

So, life in the SwansNest is often sleepless and some nights are easier than this. Thank you for accepting our struggle and appreciating that our world and work is surrounded around the kids. It’s a small thing and helps us greatly.

Keep taking care of each other! We’re all we got <3

3.26-27.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

Its the end to a wonderful weekend. We had so much fun with our Treetrunk boy and getting to know his gf, such sweet kids.

Today we made Easter baskets, played bananagrams and ate French toast that papa/hubby made.

Indigo drew pictures, read books and played in his imaginary lands.

In no particular order here’s some pics from the weekend:

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“We have to consciously study how to be tender with each other until it becomes habit.” -Audre Lorde

Keep taking care of each other!

3.21-24.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

I guess we went on “vacation”. Our oldest arrived home sick and then we all got sick so hubby and I were taking turns taking care of everyone. Thankfully we are starting to feel better and have been getting some things done.

Picture by Jen Moss of Nizhoni Jewlery https://www.etsy.com/shop/Nizhonjewelry

Picture by Jen Moss of Nizhoni Jewlery https://www.etsy.com/shop/Nizhonjewelry

Phife Dawg RIP

Phife Dawg RIP

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Picture by La Abeja Herbs

Picture by La Abeja Herbs

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