4.16.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

Hard day, a good day.

Swimming, screaming and crying in the locker room, bought a book we’ve needed for YEARS, hiked some hills, hugged a friend, went home to unwind and knit.

Keep taking care of each other!

4.15.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

@Sam Bonds Garage Pub Savage Seeds t-shirt

@Sam Bonds Garage Pub
Savage Seeds t-shirt

Hubby says, “I’m going to party like it’s 8:39”. That’s in pm. We are feeling this Friday.

It was a good day. I got to see one of my bestest friends. I love her dearly like a sister. We’ve been through storms together and now we both have baby/toddlers at the same time. It’s been wonderful to have her back in our hometown.

Indigo had a mild day though he screamed down the Kiva, a local natural grocer. Which in our home town is a right of passage for most kids here.

We went to both of our co-op grocers too. Both hold love and care and magic for us. Thank you Lilly for the connection, always.

We visited a local artist and friend Sarah Ciampa and purchased a piece. I’m so excited to receive and gift this art to someone special in my life.

We visited another local artist and friend but it was only a drop off. We need Indigo’s amber necklace repaired and who better to do that than Maya Rabasa of Casa Rabasa?!

We had a beer and some food at Sam Bonds and ran into some sweet community members.

I’m so glad Indigo has you all to lean on and be with through it all. Growing up is hard to do!

It’s all better with friends <3

4.13-14.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

We had our monthly Fruit Booth meeting last night. It’s always great to see all the faces we spend a week with out in the woods with music and fruit and frivolity.

These meetings are people from all walks of life coming together so we strive to be respectful and compassionate towards each other. Last night was a big learning experience for me, I usually learn something about myself but last night was a summit. “Speak up!” Was my lesson! Sometimes folks don’t hear me, whether it’s a physical thing or mental block, I wasn’t heard last night and I’m responsible for that.

Take care of you so you can get on with your work!

4.12.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

Indigo had his equipment clinic today where we purchased a walker for him. The one we have is on loan through our PT with the Early Intervention program here, EC Cares.

Before the equipment appointment was Indigo’s weekly OT appointment where we work on feeding in the home. Chewing and sucking are the things he struggles with. He’s getting better at it! He can now eat some crunchy foods like gold fish crackers and Cheerios.

So many changes going on around here. I can’t wait for summer when we can catch our breath.

4.11.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

This is coming in a day late. The day after our big kids leave us is always hard. Hard for our little one and hard on my mama heart.

I’m trying to do the easy things to ease back into life but life is complex with our little one so that’s not going to work out that way right now.

More to come…keep taking care of you.

4.10.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

It was a wonderful Sunday morning with friends at UUCE annual brunch service.

It’s such a warm and welcoming place for us. And I know my kids are safe, respected and even loved by many there.

I hope whatever you do on Sunday’s (or your day off, whenever that is) that you are able to build community with reverence, joy and equity for yourselves and your family. Also important, have some fun while doing it.

Happy Sunday to you all!

4.7.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

6 hours straight of crying, screaming, signing “all done” and he passes out after our shower while I brush my hair.


I’m digging deep in my motherly compassion as we are on day 4 of this.

Keep taking care of each other! Some people are really struggling without showing it. Others show it and don’t get the care they need. Others don’t know how to help themselves. Trauma does things to people. Keep reaching and keep replenishing that cup of compassion.

4.5-6.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

It’s been some long long days with Indigo. I think he’s going through a growth spurt and cognitively he’s making some leaps.

He loves talking about colours and “3-2-1 blast off!”

He had his big yearly evaluation with Child Development and he’s moving right along. He’s right where he should be for being Indigo <3

Thank you for loving us just the way we are, some with an extra Chromey!

3.28.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

3 years of no sleeping really gets to you. 7-ish years of “sleeping” next to someone who snores is hard but not as complicated as a toddler who cannot tell us what’s wrong, he might not even understand it himself?

Last night was not uncommon for Indigo and we know some of you experience these nights too. It’s too much sometimes but I work on digging deep for that extra ounce of compassion and try to refill my cup when I’m given the opportunity.

Last night: Indigo’s down by 8pm (wow!) but he fell asleep in the living room. We move him to his bed and he wakes up. Hubby tries for nearly three hours to get Indigo to sleep with periodic nursing with mama and water breaks. At almost 11pm papa/hubby needs sleep so he can go to work so mama takes over the nightly kidcare. Nursing and putting babe in the carrier and walking and nursing and walking and nursing, three more hours goes by. Mama can’t walk and nurse anymore. Papa takes over another three hours then has to get ready for work. It’s 4am and Mama goes back out to the living room where it all started but babe is still crying until he passes out then wakes up to cry some more (my poor baby!).

Bach’s Rescue Remedy, Milky Oat Tops, lots of nursing milkies, walking, TV, music, singing, reading, lots of trying to read, some more TV…the whole time babe is signing “all done” and “hurt” and can’t tells us what or where. Finally, Ibuprofen is given and its 7am and he’s now passed out on mama for who knows how long?

I’m not sure about putting things like this out there but maybe it will help someone? At least, you’re not alone in the struggle.

So, life in the SwansNest is often sleepless and some nights are easier than this. Thank you for accepting our struggle and appreciating that our world and work is surrounded around the kids. It’s a small thing and helps us greatly.

Keep taking care of each other! We’re all we got <3