A Year In Review

The Pacheco Swan Family’s year in review. Skip to the bottom if you just want the photos.

Looking back on the year, and being honest, we were hit rather hard in 2012. “Parenting Plan” court dates, fractured friendships, pregnancy, moving, dropping the ball everywhere else in life, all while keeping this family going through the daily routine. With little to no help from the ones who we thought would have our backs. We formed new friendships and rekindled old ones. Our community has been pouring the love toward us. There are so many of you! We love you all!

(Light candles, smudge, hold hands, sing songs…)

Hubby and I also leaned on each other more than ever before. Hubby has been the rock for the family this year. Incredible only dusts the surface in revealing who he is. He’s been making me breakfast and getting my vitamins and tea for me every single morning during this pregnancy (32 weeks now – 8ish weeks left), amongst the other numerous things he does for us. He spends more time with our Treetrunk boy so that he feels supported through the pregnancy too. I love Hubby with all of my heart, soul, and mind.

In a way these hard times have been a blessing. Yes, let’s look at them that way. Because, really, when this family was put through emotional hellish circumstances, dealing with horrible people, not enough money and bureaucratic limitations…we did not crumble. We grew stronger. And that is what a family should be, right?

My family are the people I can grow with, learn with, love with, cry with, frustrate with, hold on tightly to and release knowing that time will be short so let us enjoy each other. And I’m finding more and more that our communities are an extension of all of this wonder.

We are magic! Thank you for being apart of all that magic.

Bits of family life 2012, in no particular order:

Treetrunk and Oboster Summer 2012

Treetrunk with one of his besties.

Oboster’s first homemade applesauce Summer 2012.

7 months Pregnant at Hendricks Park.

Nico and Treetrunk at Hendricks Park, December 2012.

Hubby at Mt. Pisgah May 2012

Treetrunk and Hubby at Mt. Pisgah May 2012

Peace!
The Pacheco Swan Family

Things and Cake.

In photos, what we’ve been up to lately.

Roses are for loved ones.

The test cake for Brother Older's 12th Birthday...Sooo Yummy! Coconut flour, banana lemon, goodness. (Dairy free, Gluten free, and Cane Sugar free).

 

Chive Blossoms in white vinegar. This one reminded me of one of our dearest dear friends Cassandra.
Apricots, Elderflowers, and raw honey. This one brought back memories of eating toast with Miss Bethany C.

Today I reminded myself of that age old rule :
If you can’t say anything nice don’t say anything at all.

Hmmm, peace, love, and talking nice nice.

P.S. I think it’s wonderfully necessary and completely fine to be upset and talk about it (if not scream it from the mountain tops):
“Today I’m REALLY mad!”
…just so you know.

All I Need Today

Today I need so much, or I think I do?!

Emotional work is hard work and can end up leaving you feeling empty inside.

Today my oldest left me a message before he left to meet the bus. He doesn’t know all that I face today, he doesn’t need to know.

Him and I have a connection beyond what bounds us to this earth, beyond the heavens, beyond anything physical…we are connected by our souls.

He often knows I need something w/o me asking.

Today he left me this message:

"I love you Mum." by Treetrunk boy.

That’s all I need today, a little message about the big love between me and him.

Chasing Rainbows

I’m hearing Joni Mitchell and Sting in my memories, that time in my life when I lived on a rainbow. With my Baby Sister and our handmade dolls, in our handmade cloths, digging our handmade garden.

We were well tended. Life was mud pies and ants in our pants. It was a simple way and it’s now the past.

Today, as are most days around here, it’s all about the simple things.

Today I’m chasing rainbows.

Rainbows on my kitchen walls.

That’s all for now.