4.8.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

More on trauma and an intro on how art can bring you new horizons…

Knitting has not only helped me relaxe while I make things but I get to use my artistic skills with mixing and matching colours and strengthen my math and pattern skills.

Something else happened though that was unexpected, I found ravelry.com, an international community of yarn enthusiasts. Mostly knitters and crocheters but I’ve seen some woven works while perusing the pattern data base late at night.

This international community has taken me ¬†way past my skill points, expanded my knowledge base in both math and patterns and it’s introduced me to incredible artists and incredible people. Most of the time I meet people who love creating beautiful and interesting pieces of art but every once in a while I find other people who are struggling with their mental health. They lost someone they love deeply, they are recovering from surgery, they are in counseling for an abusive relationship of some kind…many of these things are found through the profiles with links to blogs and Facebook pages.

This community, although reaching across the world, is quite small. So bumping into reality happens often. When we share in this way we can start the healing and our art blooms and seeds that can spread and can help someone sow their own art and healing.

I hope you take some time to check out the beautiful pieces being made and the expressions that are shared. Maybe you’ll find some friends along the way and begin the healing?

Again and again and again…keep taking care of each other!!

3.28.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

3 years of no sleeping really gets to you. 7-ish years of “sleeping” next to someone who snores is hard but not as complicated as a toddler who cannot tell us what’s wrong, he might not even understand it himself?

Last night was not uncommon for Indigo and we know some of you experience these nights too. It’s too much sometimes but I work on digging deep for that extra ounce of compassion and try to refill my cup when I’m given the opportunity.

Last night: Indigo’s down by 8pm (wow!) but he fell asleep in the living room. We move him to his bed and he wakes up. Hubby tries for nearly three hours to get Indigo to sleep with periodic nursing with mama and water breaks. At almost 11pm papa/hubby needs sleep so he can go to work so mama takes over the nightly kidcare. Nursing and putting babe in the carrier and walking and nursing and walking and nursing, three more hours goes by. Mama can’t walk and nurse anymore. Papa takes over another three hours then has to get ready for work. It’s 4am and Mama goes back out to the living room where it all started but babe is still crying until he passes out then wakes up to cry some more (my poor baby!).

Bach’s Rescue Remedy, Milky Oat Tops, lots of nursing milkies, walking, TV, music, singing, reading, lots of trying to read, some more TV…the whole time babe is signing “all done” and “hurt” and can’t tells us what or where. Finally, Ibuprofen is given and its 7am and he’s now passed out on mama for who knows how long?

I’m not sure about putting things like this out there but maybe it will help someone? At least, you’re not alone in the struggle.

So, life in the SwansNest is often sleepless and some nights are easier than this. Thank you for accepting our struggle and appreciating that our world and work is surrounded around the kids. It’s a small thing and helps us greatly.

Keep taking care of each other! We’re all we got <3

3.26-27.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

Its the end to a wonderful weekend. We had so much fun with our Treetrunk boy and getting to know his gf, such sweet kids.

Today we made Easter baskets, played bananagrams and ate French toast that papa/hubby made.

Indigo drew pictures, read books and played in his imaginary lands.

In no particular order here’s some pics from the weekend:

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“We have to consciously study how to be tender with each other until it becomes habit.” -Audre Lorde

Keep taking care of each other!

3.21-24.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

I guess we went on “vacation”. Our oldest arrived home sick and then we all got sick so hubby and I were taking turns taking care of everyone. Thankfully we are starting to feel better and have been getting some things done.

Picture by Jen Moss of Nizhoni Jewlery https://www.etsy.com/shop/Nizhonjewelry

Picture by Jen Moss of Nizhoni Jewlery https://www.etsy.com/shop/Nizhonjewelry

Phife Dawg RIP

Phife Dawg RIP

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Picture by La Abeja Herbs

Picture by La Abeja Herbs

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3.5.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

I feel a very strong momentous energy of success. So many people I love and care about are being recognized and being rewarded for their hard work. These people are generally successful folks but there are a few I’m thinking of today who have been in a pattern struggle and need. If you’ve been there, really been there, you know how depleting and catching that is. It’s like a net that drags you down and no matter how hard you try to escape, every ounce of effort feels wasted on the struggle downward.

These are wonderful people and their hard work is paying off, FINALLY!

I celebrate with you!

Ignore the haters, jump on this success train and keep going!!

3.1-4.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

We have been so sick and just hanging on but we are starting to turn the corner on this flu virus that is making its way through our valley.

Indigo healed up the fastest then my Hubby. I unfortunately have the persistent respiratory cough that doesn’t allow for much sleep and is very slow to heal. Thank the goddess for good friends!!!

Our friends and community continue to surround us with love and care. I’m not surprised, we have all invested in each other. It’s not easy being community because we all come from different places yet we find our way through all the and support each other.

I am continually humbled by the generosity of others.

Keep taking care of each other!

 

2.20-21.16 From where I stand…

From where I stand…

The past weekend was really busy with a lot of celebrating.

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The Eugene Asian Celebration, being with family and friends, tea with amazing people…life is incredible!

Keep taking care of each other, community!